i am now but a wanderer. lost. confused. frustrated. yet i am willing to embark on a journey. a spiritual journey..... and my journey begins here.
few months ago, things were very crazy in my life. relationships were tested and broken. words, accusations and judgments were hurled upon one another. after the dust has settled i found myself still standing yet confused and empty. i started asking myself, why does this thing happened? how come these people, my "so-called friends" look at me totally opposite of how i know myself? have i changed over the years without even knowing it? what have i become? what and who am i?
and so i pray.
yes i prayed but that's when it hit me.
"lord, how come i cannot feel you anymore like i used too? are you still there listening to me? have we grown so far apart that i can't feel you anymore? where are you?".
and so i wept.
i wept coz i know now what's missing in my life. i wept because i realized how much i have neglected that relationship i used to have with him. i wept because the connection wasn't there anymore. i wept for other reason. i wept till i've fallen to sleep.
i am a firm believer. i value my faith as much as i value life itself. for i believe that a man who has no faith has a life without sense.
it will be a long journey. seeking myself. my life. my faith. my fate.
